stop killing things. stop it. stop.
does your soul feel your
body after it has been
sprung, like phantom limbs?
i'm quite saddened by arafat's death, and i'm not sure why; i wasn't a devoted follower by any stretch of the imagination. but there's no other way to describe it; i'm just plain sad. i never get over how strange it is, the way a person can feel so much affection for a stranger, the way that affection will crop up out of nothing in instants. or maybe that only happens to me. i don't mind if that's the case, i like that it happens. it's curious, that's all. it surprises me every time.
i think i'm frightened that some terrible people will take advantage of his absence to do some terrible things. the world can't afford that just now. more people who would rather not do any harm, that's what she needs.
speaking of not doing any harm, that's the motto of the mspca: to do no harm. some interesting facts about my hospital, which falls under the mspca umbrella:
1. they do not condone live-release mouse traps. when i had mice in my ward and asked maintenance what they could do for me, i was told that they only stock kill traps. something about not having time to check them all every day. so i went out and bought some live-release traps with my own money, but then i decided that the mice were kind of cute, and they weren't really hurting anything, so now those traps are in a cabinet.
2. there was an absolutely gorgeous stone building with a tower and a lovely yard out front until about a week ago, when they bombed the crap out of it to make room for an additional parking lot for all the clients we don't have. the theory is that they'll see all the construction we're doing and assume we have lots of money, which they'll think we're getting from lots of clients, which would then lead them to believe that we are the best hospital around. total through-the-looking-glass logic, if you ask me, but they didn't ask me, so there you are. anyhow, before they tore down the building they surrounded it with briefcase-sized boxes of rodenticide. apparently they can't run the risk of any of the mice that survive the blast making it into the building and costing them more money in traps.
3. a few months ago some people brought their kitten in because he'd been vomiting. it turned out he'd swallowed some string, and that string had led to an intestinal obstruction, so he needed surgery or he wasn't going to make it. i loved this kitten. i took his x-rays, i held him for his ultrasound, and then i let him sleep in my lap while i filed reports. while he was sleeping in my lap his doctor came along and told me that his owners couldn't afford the necessary surgery, so they were going to have to put him to sleep. i offered to adopt him, and then i offered to just pay for his surgery, or do whatever the hell had to be done so that he was not killed. the CHIEF OF STAFF told us that that wasn't an option, because the surgery would be half-price if i were the animal's owner. he said a lot of other rubbish, too, but that was the reason he kept coming back to. i'd pay half price, and if he let them do it for me he'd have to do it for everyone, and then no one would ever pay full price for a surgery again, and what kind of way to run a business was that? and so my kitten was sent off to the giant catnip pillow in the sky. that dude has since resigned, and he resigned because he was going to be fired for perforating a dog's stomach. let me tell you, folks, there was no containing my elation over that one (the dog is okay now). tightwad bastard. when the choice is between saving a life and not saving a life, shouldn't you save it every time you can? shouldn't that be the thing you became a doctor for?
these are just random highlights. for those not in the know, mspca stands for the massachusetts society for the prevention of cruelty to animals. soak it up for a second. maybe you can see why i'm starting to explore other options. hypocrisy sucks. bureaucracy sucks. the o.c. sucks, even though they did feature sufjan stevens in this evening's episode.
it's o.k. to be sad.
body after it has been
sprung, like phantom limbs?
i'm quite saddened by arafat's death, and i'm not sure why; i wasn't a devoted follower by any stretch of the imagination. but there's no other way to describe it; i'm just plain sad. i never get over how strange it is, the way a person can feel so much affection for a stranger, the way that affection will crop up out of nothing in instants. or maybe that only happens to me. i don't mind if that's the case, i like that it happens. it's curious, that's all. it surprises me every time.
i think i'm frightened that some terrible people will take advantage of his absence to do some terrible things. the world can't afford that just now. more people who would rather not do any harm, that's what she needs.
speaking of not doing any harm, that's the motto of the mspca: to do no harm. some interesting facts about my hospital, which falls under the mspca umbrella:
1. they do not condone live-release mouse traps. when i had mice in my ward and asked maintenance what they could do for me, i was told that they only stock kill traps. something about not having time to check them all every day. so i went out and bought some live-release traps with my own money, but then i decided that the mice were kind of cute, and they weren't really hurting anything, so now those traps are in a cabinet.
2. there was an absolutely gorgeous stone building with a tower and a lovely yard out front until about a week ago, when they bombed the crap out of it to make room for an additional parking lot for all the clients we don't have. the theory is that they'll see all the construction we're doing and assume we have lots of money, which they'll think we're getting from lots of clients, which would then lead them to believe that we are the best hospital around. total through-the-looking-glass logic, if you ask me, but they didn't ask me, so there you are. anyhow, before they tore down the building they surrounded it with briefcase-sized boxes of rodenticide. apparently they can't run the risk of any of the mice that survive the blast making it into the building and costing them more money in traps.
3. a few months ago some people brought their kitten in because he'd been vomiting. it turned out he'd swallowed some string, and that string had led to an intestinal obstruction, so he needed surgery or he wasn't going to make it. i loved this kitten. i took his x-rays, i held him for his ultrasound, and then i let him sleep in my lap while i filed reports. while he was sleeping in my lap his doctor came along and told me that his owners couldn't afford the necessary surgery, so they were going to have to put him to sleep. i offered to adopt him, and then i offered to just pay for his surgery, or do whatever the hell had to be done so that he was not killed. the CHIEF OF STAFF told us that that wasn't an option, because the surgery would be half-price if i were the animal's owner. he said a lot of other rubbish, too, but that was the reason he kept coming back to. i'd pay half price, and if he let them do it for me he'd have to do it for everyone, and then no one would ever pay full price for a surgery again, and what kind of way to run a business was that? and so my kitten was sent off to the giant catnip pillow in the sky. that dude has since resigned, and he resigned because he was going to be fired for perforating a dog's stomach. let me tell you, folks, there was no containing my elation over that one (the dog is okay now). tightwad bastard. when the choice is between saving a life and not saving a life, shouldn't you save it every time you can? shouldn't that be the thing you became a doctor for?
these are just random highlights. for those not in the know, mspca stands for the massachusetts society for the prevention of cruelty to animals. soak it up for a second. maybe you can see why i'm starting to explore other options. hypocrisy sucks. bureaucracy sucks. the o.c. sucks, even though they did feature sufjan stevens in this evening's episode.
it's o.k. to be sad.
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